Random xuete.
Am restless. Just dont feel like touching my books again. Jaded.
Cannot stand the mess in my room but the weather seems too hot for me to roll up my sleeves and start tidying up.
Feel so nonplussed about the whole office politics bull. The adult world is so scary, and I'm putting half a foot into it already. It's so sad when you start to realise people around you are all not trustworthy and you literally have to stand on your own bloody feet, and only have yourself to count on.
What happened to the innocence of when we were young? When nothing matters to you more than spending time with your friends, having fun in school, looking forward to going out with your family; when the most important thing you feel that you have to have is the latest flavour of ice cream or a piece of your favorite sweets.
And wham! you are thrown into the adult world before you know it, where everyone is thinking about money and power, where the feelings of superiority and control blind your eyes and all you see is your gains and losses. No more pure friendships and kindness. Everything is masked with an ulterior motive. No more giving you a big rabbit milk candy cause you just wanna be friends. The motto of your friendships becomes “朋友是来利用的”. People take sides and judge without knowing the full story. Insisting on their own POV and preach according to that. Whatever happened to equity?
So scary. I'd like to say I would never want to live in a world like this, but sadly, I already am.
My foundation is running out yet again. I think my concealer doesnt want to run out, or it grows in that minute tube itself.
From now on, I will try to only date guys with "strong will and dotes on girlfriend" inscribed on their foreheads.
Labels: me, rants
